once upon a time

I was just standing there, minding my own business, when suddenly....
my past
my present
and my future
walked into the bar.

It made me tense.

OK.....EYE -2-D2, the kids and stuff

well, things have been interesting since Boy Wonder hit town.  He flew in from Oregon Wednesday nigh and boy, are his arms tired!
Seriously folks.
Everything seems to get interesting when he is back in town.
well... he flew in with his Buddy Jim.... they have known each other since sixth grade, and are now roommates and working together at the Rogue Brewing Co in Newport OR.  SO..... They both worked Tuesday then drove the two and a half hours to Portland, partied with friends and caught the 6am flight out, landed in Mil-Walky, partied with more friends ....and eventually ended up here in beautiful downtown Wisconsyn.  The guys were in town for Adam and Kelly's wedding.  Adam was Max's roommate for three years and I guess they had a good gathering.  The wedding was at a State Park on the north end of the lake.  The had a big pavilion, a blue grass band... and a bratwurst, hamburger, Cole slaw and potato salad.  After wards the Bride and Groom and about 35 friends just..... camped out.  Wonder Boy video taped the event.  I can't wait to see the results.

 The evil eye thingee is progressing.  Paper work, paper work paper work.  It isn't all bad.  It does seem that some help will be available, I really don't know how much yet.  My friend, Eye Doc Tom has been real good sending off paper where ever it is needed.  IT IS DEPRESSING, THOUGH.  I am having decent luck selling off some of the old collectibles on ebay.  The night vision is for shit.  Twilight either finds me home or close to it, or with someone who is driving.

I guess it is what it is and we just keep on keeping on.

Max thinks it is really funny to flip me the Bird and then ask, from a distance, how many fingers he is holding up.
"Can you see it now?"
"Can you see it if I get closer?"

of course, his sister has something to say.........

" Max.... you're disgusting."

ya, but he is kinda funny.  He offered to buy me a 'Seeing-Eye Parakeet'

humor helps..... whatever happens.

Eye Update

Ok... first off.... I really would like to say thank you to all who have commiserated with me about my condition.  Kind words DO make a difference.
I guess if I still had insurance this would not be a big deal.  I guess the surgery is one of the easiest to perform, done in mere minutes, with a high rate of success.  Insurance?  What a great word for a bookie.... and to me that is what Insurance is.....betting.  You bet that you eventually will get sick and the insurance company bets that you won't.  Trouble is that if and when you get sick...... the insureance company won't pay, or says that it is your fault.... oh oh oh...!!!. and let's not forget that wonderful word..... DEDUCTIBLE  !  I remember back in college when the National Collegiate Debate was " Resolved: The United States should implement a system of comprehensive Health Care for all citizens"  That wqas back iin 1972.........boy have we come along way since then, huh?  Today I walked by a large insurance company office.....three big floors of people that do what...... make other people well?

Oh gees, see, it ain't no big deal.... I am doing what I can.  Today I sat with Social Services to see what kind of assistance I can get.... might work.  They also gave me a big list of 'Charities that might help.  Goldang it all..... I paid taxes for years.... I don't want a hand out.... I just want A LITTLE OF WHAT I PAID FOR... I JUST WANT THIS FIXED!!!!!!!

oh, well.  I reactivated my ebay account and am selling off a bunch of my old collectibles.  I know there are boxes of stuff I have collected that may bring in some bucks....

.........anyone needs some straight razors.....?  I am living on the edge.

Happy Dad's Day..... and now some churchyness

Perhaps later..... perhaps

I am not one to dwell on certain things.  It is easy enough to share what we like, what pleases us, what we love and how the moon at night can shape our dreams.

And then there is that which frightens us.... seemingly defeats us, and that we tuck into corners both sharp and dangerous and we do not go there often, if at all, for it can eat us up and destroy all we love.

So I have not mentioned that what really frightens me, but as my posting gets lighter and what I write is getting pettier and simpler.....(ha...like it was that hot in the first place!)  I just thought I would explain a little.  I am losing my sight.  I have no insurance.  Later today I am going, finally, to the Doctor.  The eye Doc is a friend.  We have socialized and played golf and gone on road trips together in the past.  He will yell at me for not going sooner.  He will call me by my nickname and not James or such bullshit.  It could be worse.  I gave up driving over a year ago.... it was a sensible thing to do.  More and more people talk to me and I cannot see who they are.

The money thing with out insurance, really bothers me.  So.... it can be fixed, but I cannot afford it?

Or, it cannot be fixed.  What the Fuck........ see.....  it is always something.

I guess it will be easier to visit blogs than to write.  At present ..... I need to get my nose about two inches from the screen..... anyways... that is what is up.  I do not like it one little bit..... but as in all things in life....... no one asks me.

Bob Welch, guitarist for Fleetwood Mac....Dead at 65

take a break